Thank you for this thoughtful piece from the heart. I have stopped killing insects. I resolved to do that when my daughter was little. She was a year old. Crawling she pointed at a fruit-fly and said “this”. I instinctively killed it, then got overwhelmed with regret at murdering an innocent creature in front of my innocent baby who was so curious about the world. It took me 10 years to program that instinct out of me. I had to remove all the hurt from myself. Everything the Israelis put in me growing up in occupied Palestine. Hurt from the bullies at school. Everything. It took the covid pandemic and people dying by the thousands to get me to stop and think first, and like you, trap them and set them free.